I Don’t Want God

I’m going to be very transparent with you. My life at this present moment isn’t what I wanted it to be. I’ve been dealing with a season of disappointment, devastation, and just straight up anger. Things haven’t been going the way I want them to go. I’ve been praying and begging God, and then it hit me.

 

Maybe I don’t really want God.

 

 

Maybe I just want what I think God should give me.

I want my dreams, more than I want God.

I want what God does, not who God is.

 

It’s a tough pill to swallow.

Maybe the reason I feel devastated and broken is that I gave my love and devotion to my dreams and aspirations, rather to just God.

Have you ever felt this way or am I the only one? Sound off below.

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